Date: 2007-06-06 14:19 Subject: Lost Notes! Security: Public Mood: uncomfortable

I haven't updated this in awhile. Year 6 has finally finished, and working on Year 7. In between, I wanted to do a side story about Makoto, her descendant is Madame Rosmerta. Alas, I have no idea where I put all that hard-earned work. But I found myself to have lost the damn things. It hurts so much to lose such a great, wonderful thing. I believe I wrote about the others, but I haven't a clue to where they have gone. BOO! I have to re-write all that damn stuff, again!

As for Year 7 - I did a few research and even asked my brother about this particular new character. The new Defense Professor is from a book so I hope he'll be much appreciated. Yes, it's a he. I could have done a female for once, but I like the new Instructor - he's quirky.

I need to find more about him, I only wrote about a quarter of a page so far. I don't see the next chapter being posted anytime soon.

Date: 2007-05-22 12:12 Subject: Chapter 20 posted Security: Public Location: Work

I posted Chapter 20, and now working on 21. I actually believed that it would be easy to write, but I am finding it troublesome. I already altered the scene 5-6 times already. The latest scene is iffy for me, I wasn't sure if it ...suited Harry's personality at all. Two chapters ago, I ended the scene in a note that suggested that Serenity and Draco will always remain together.

However, the way I am writing it... appears that Draco is having doubts in making his feelings known to the whole school. Should I change it again? I don't know... The scene I wrote before this was in Serenity's perspective, but I changed it because I felt tired of writing in her POV.

Maybe I'll keep it in Draco's POV and change it...again with a different scene? *bangs head on the desk* I don't know what to do...

Date: 2007-05-15 22:42 Subject: Chapter 20 Security: Public Location: At home Mood: busy

So I finished Chapter 20, but I am holding off on posting it until tomorrow or the day after. I am currently working on Chapter 21, and that one already had one revision... in the first few paragraphs. Or was it two? I am having a few problems on staging the scene and how to best view the characters without significant changes.

Unfortunately, I am planning on changing it even more. I am not wholly comfortable with the way it's turning out.

Date: 2007-04-06 13:47 Subject: Chapter 19 and thinking of 20 Security: Public Location: Work again Mood: artistic

AH, thank goodness! I have gone over 19, and changed a few things near the end in regards to the conversation between Harry and Serenity. The pairing is official, I believe. I might change the ending of the whole thing - who knows?

But aside from that, I really should begin 20 and it's spinning in my head. I really do believe, I will manage 21 chapters for Year 6. I want to separate this certain scene from the next chapter and use it as a transition between the end of Year 6 to Year 7. Chapter 21 should have the beginning of the summer involved - the whole train ride issue. Oh wait, maybe Serenity will stay in Hogwarts? Hmm... I wonder. Maybe Serenity will be going to Grimmauld Place, just because she can't really be there the whole summer. Can she? Professors will still need to tutor her, of course.

Wow now my mind drifted on how to start Chapter 20. Heheh... should I start it off with Serenity or at the Great Hall? Or with Ron and Hermione - maybe, the Professors? Dum-de-dum... wonder wonder.

And in the Great Hall - how many will die? Yes, it is a semi-big scene. A slightly life-altering one for Serenity. Serenity, who has just managed to move on with her life will face another crisis. One that involves someone with her past (yeah, yeah no big surprise really... Flamel will die.) And if anyone is surprised about that, I am slightly shocked. I sort of ... actually no I haven't, have I? Ah well.

Okay, I think I will start it off with the Harry, Ron, and Hermione. They'll have caught up with the Headmaster and the Professors. Together, they make their way to the Great Hall and notice something is horribly wrong (who wouldn't - those heavy wooden doors are gone!). Yes, yes... perfect. Hahah... this thing is helpful.

Date: 2007-04-04 16:31 Subject: Updated Needed Security: Public Location: Work Music: Kryptonite

I updated, I think two chapters for Needed. I am happy about that. And I will be posting the 19th chapter out soon. I need to go over it, and tinker with the convos near the middle-end. I am definitely not happy with that. It appeared a bit OOC for me, so I need to find a middle-ground to make it appear as if they are still in-character. It is annoying me!

At first, I was fine with it, but...after I re-read the chapter, I frowned and thought it odd. Hmm, I wonder if I can pass it off as an after-battle effect that screws with their emotions. Bleh, I don't think I can really say that. I'll need to read some HP fics to make me feel better. Then again, HP fics are always the solution for me. X_X

On the up-side, I settled on the pairing. I just hope people will not kill me about this. I thought up several scenarios in regards to the ending with each pairing. As much as I favored one, I went with the other because I found it more interesting to write about during the actual storyline, and not the inevitable ending. I would rather write about the difficulties the couples will face, instead of a semi-angsty ending.

Boy, will there be more gore blooming from this coupling! I hope I can keep it to an T... how mature can T go, anyway? *shrugs*

Date: 2007-03-27 13:35 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: pensive

Well I already created the Side story. I began with Rei, and then I'm working on Makoto/Lita. It'll be told by Madame Rosmerta who ends up being Makoto's descendant by 3 generations, I believe.

After that I'll work something out with either Luna or Minako. Luna will probably be some magical creature and Minako will be a muggle who lives in either England or Japan, I'm not clear on that. Luna may live overseas, instead of England, and there's a high probability of her being married off to someone else and producing a child. Minako is - hmm, no idea yet but I'll think about it after writing Makoto's story.

Date: 2007-03-23 11:27 Subject: Brink of creating Side-Story Security: Public Location: Work

I began thinking about creating a side-story, because I highly believe that the other scouts/senshi will not main characters in Needed.

Therefore, I am planning on creating a mini-series of short stories highlighting the other scouts and Luna. I doubt I will be putting Taiki and them in there, but I will be writing about the Outer Senshi along with the Inners and, of course, Luna.

I already began an outline of sorts about each of the scouts, but I am still working on about two-three more of the characters - Minako, Makoto, and Luna.

The stories will be told in different ways/perspectives. Either through memories from another person, or their own. I think one of them is told through a diary entry, but I have not completely decided on that.

This is being created, because I began one that I thought I would be integrating into Needed but I have completely cut it out and placed some other chapter there. I was disappointed, but it helped the story along. After looking back on that short chapter, I feel compelled in letting other people read that missing chapter.
I just hope other people will like it.

Date: 2007-03-14 16:41 Subject: Thoughts about pairing Security: Public Mood: confused

Well, I have been mulling over this for awhile, and I noticed how indecisive I was about my pairing. My first thought when doing this fanfic was to definitely make it a Draco/Serenity fanfic, because... I am a huge fan of Draco Malfoy. Really now, the whole bad boy image is hot! Not to mention the passion that she's shared with Draco.

However, as I continued to write Needed, I began to falter in my stance because of the closeness and actual care Serenity shares with Harry. He's like the guy you can depend on, the one you know will remain faithful to you no matter what. And with Serenity's personality, she needs someone like Harry in her life after all that she's been through. Especially after her abduction and betrayal.

So after looking into this, it seems I am leaning heavily on Harry. Yet... I can't help but feel that Serenity continues looking at Malfoy, despite the fact that Harry is right there! I wonder why that is, I really do.

I'm writing this damn thing, and I don't know what's going on in her head!

Date: 2007-03-07 15:16 Subject: Now onto Chapter 19 Security: Public Location: Work Mood: excited

Oh look at me, look at me! I have finally gotten pass Chapter 18. Now I'm onto 19, which will be the actual brunt of the whole story. That is what I am aiming for~

Last post, I mentioned about all that stuff that would happen all in one chapter. Well... that didn't work, and instead I kind of stopped in it. All of that will happen in Chapter 19 now. Figures how stories work, eh?

So far I only wrote about 3/4 a page. I hope to write more, soon. I have a lot planned for this chapter and I still hope to finish it before reaching 21 chapters. I'll think about beginning to post these stories out after re-reading them. After finishing with Year 6, I'll start preparing for Year 7 and begin it as soon as I can.

Date: 2007-02-23 10:06 Subject: Having Difficulties Security: Public Location: Work Mood: discontent

School is becoming a little more troublesome. I haven't truly begun my writing assignment for English class, but I have been thinking about every now and then. I definitely have to work on it today and hope to finish by tomorrow night. You see I want my professor to proofread it and the deadline is for Sunday.

School aside, I am having a bit of difficulty with Chapter 18. I had written up to page 7, stopped, and deleted the whole segment with the exception of the first few paragraphs. The whole scene that I was writing didn't please me.

Now I am trying to think up a new scenario and if I can just pass that section, I believe that I can write the rest of that chapter before moving on.

When I think about the last few scenes of Year Six I am pretty sure that I'll keep what I have written in mind. And that leads me into thinking about the possible storyline for Year 7. I only hope that I won't change my mind about what will occur during that whole year. Moreover, I have been filled with notions that perhaps the fight with Voldemort will take place earlier than the end of the term.

Anyway, I just wanted to jot these down before I forget. I'll move on to some more rambling about what to do with Chapter 18.

For Chapter 18 I wanted to move the storyline along. So I began with the lich, moved for Voldemort, and then decide to move onto Serenity. I make it take place on Ron's birthday since I felt like it. During breakfast, Serenity conjures up the strength to kiss Harry on the lips (assuming that beforehand she had never done so before). Ginny makes a comment that sends Serenity to reflect back to the past and pretty much freezes. Harry and the others begin to worry but before the professors and others interfere, Serenity comes back to reality and claims that it's nothing.

From there, I'm pretty much at a loss. I'm not sure what else to do after that - I suppose they could just continue on with their day... maybe I will...
As for the attack I want to happen... the lich should make an appearance, but I'm still unsure about when Voldemort's minions will come about. Maybe at the same time?
Sometime during the chapter, I want Serenity to remember the stone she has. She's been carrying it with her because she feels partial with the stone.

These things come to mind...

I suppose the lich will attack during lunch time... Voldemort some time later.
The stone thing... maybe it'll be during the attack. It only makes sense... the lich, I doubt, will retreat.

Date: 2007-02-14 11:56 Subject: More progress Security: Public Mood: productive

I'll have you know that I am not entirely dead. Yes, I am slow to update and I have noted that I would not post until I have finished until the end of Year Six. I'll keep that promise to myself.

I recently finished typing up chapter 17 and am now working on 18. I've written about a page so far, and I am happy with it so far. Chapter 18 should have more going in it than the last few chapters. The lich makes an appearance and you find out what Voldemort is doing.

Aside from all of that, I am wondering what else to put in the chapter. Serenity, it would seem, is faring better than she ever has since her return - I am happy with her progress. There is still a few events that I need to plan out, but overall the fanfic is progressing well.

I believe with the way things are going Year Six should be finished soon. I doubt it will end more than 22 chapters, but who knows? I know how Year Six will end, but I don't know how my current chapter will progress to that particular event. I hope it will work out well.

Date: 2007-01-29 14:09 Subject: Long time Security: Public Location: work Mood: apathetic

I know that my precious Needed is taking a long time to update, and I have a good reason. Okay, maybe not as good as others may be but it is sound reasoning on my part.

I have decided to write up at least up until the end of the Sixth Year, just to see where I am going with it rather than writing and posting the story up chapter-by-chapter. It is unnerving not knowing or having a half-assed idea of what Serenity is going to do, will do, and/or should do. Therefore, I am working on writing the chapters up and solidifying them not only for my sake by the sake of the readers.

Needed is too important to me and is becoming one of my favorite stories. It's pretty high up there on my other favorite accomplishments, and the first SM/Anime Crossover that I have written that is not GW-related. Doubts may have been the first to hold that title, but to be truthful, it was difficult and not as emotional for me, though it should have been.

I have only written one chapter so far for Needed, but I have already started the next chapter. Serenity is, at the moment, getting progressively better. I am proud of her accomplishments thus far and I don't believe that she will dwell much longer in her depressive, secluded mood that she is in.

As for the lich, it will make its presence known to Serenity soon - I hope. Perhaps he will be dealt with sooner, rather than later in the year. I'm not sure.

Date: 2006-12-30 12:58 Subject: Possible revision for chapter 16 Security: Public Mood: determined

I received a private message from a reader concerning Serenity. After reading about it, I thought that her idea is the correct way in dealing with her emotional turmoil.

After Serenity's breakdown, her recovery time should take about 2-3 weeks, not sooner. And that's with a form of therapy, at least from what I grasped from the websites that I have visited. Right now Serenity is undergoing what people call PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder - an experience or witnessing life-threatening events - and in Serenity's case that would be a violent personal assault.

So far Serenity is experiencing flashbacks, nightmares, and quite detached in life. What I need to do with Chapter 16 is a certain step toward recovery, if not the recovery itself if I can manage that without making it go too fast or too slow.

I'm quite happy with the message sent, since I haven't really thought about what Serenity's case is actually called. All I thought during the time since her return was "what would she be feeling right now and how would she act?"

Now hopefully the website's idea can be helpful in the fanfic as to how to cope with the situation and the steps necessary towards her recovery without messing it all up.

Date: 2006-12-19 16:26 Subject: Progress on Chapter 16 Security: Public Location: Work Mood: hopeful

Well I wrote a few more lines for Needed. I re-read Chapter 15 and then Chapter 16, I like it so far - I think. I mean, I don't dislike what I write, so that's good, right?

I admit that I have been putting off my writing, opting for reading other fanfics. I've been into Draco/Harry pairings so far and I've been so involved in those fanfics that I practically ran out of fanfics to read. Hahaha! *cough* Okay, that was really bad of me and I should not have done that. And for those that dislike that pairing, or any slash/yaoi/shounen ai pairings - well, too bad. Pfft.

Aside from the fanfics, Needed should be updated pretty soon. I believe sometime this week. Maybe Wednesday after Finals, and if not... then Thursday or whatever. I don't know the reason why I'm postponing it, but I guess I'm putting Chapter 15 on these days simply as a cause for celebration that the Fall Semester is over.

Ah, that reminds me I need, need to sign up for my icky classes for Spring Semester tomorrow. That...is bloody fantastic. I hope you notice the sarcasm in that...

What else to say?

I was wondering what else I'm going to put in Chapter 16. So far she's encountered Harry and Draco. And I believe the sincerity in Harry's words helped her just a bit, but it also made her extremely guilty about what happened. In turn, it caused her to need assurance and comfort from Flamel/Artemis because she couldn't do anything while she was captured. But Artemis's words helped her a bit and actually think about moving on, but she still needs time...but at least it's something. So far she's been taking one step forward but always one step back... coming and going. It's not really living. Their talk together was... something to make Serenity think about really moving forward in life. It's too soon, really really too soon to recover from her horrors... but she should speak to other people at the very least.

Date: 2006-12-13 02:09 Subject: Not so interesting, but noteworthy Security: Public Location: Home Mood: bouncy

I'm at home.

I should be studying, but I'm not. Instead, I was actually looking at Chapter 16, and thinking about what I should write.

At first I believed that I had something in mind, and I have written a few lines as to what had been trickling in my thoughts, but it faded away afterwards. Now, all I have is this journal entry.

On the bright side, I do have interesting news to point out. I've managed to have an idea as to how to end the last two chapters before the Epilogue for the whole story of Needed. I am quite proud of how it's going to end; at least, that's what I'm convincing myself.

Moreover, I am also happy to point out that I also have a keen idea on how to end the Sixth Year. At least, the last few paragraphs of it, I'm not too sure about the details before that. But at least I don't need to fret over how to end the last sentence or two for Year Six.

That's all I really wanted to say before I forget it. *looks through the few pages* Yup, I am definitely happy with the way I'm planning to end Needed. However, I still wonder about the Epilogue. I want the damn thing to be memorable and awe-inspiring.

Now if I can only to put those kinds of thoughts into Chapter 16!

Date: 2006-12-08 23:49 Subject: Frustrated Security: Public Location: Work Mood: frustrated

I am sitting here at work right now, trying to type my 15page paper for Calligraphy class at the last minute. Okay, maybe not the last minute, but the day before it's due. You see, it's due tomorrow and all I have written so far are 5 short paragraphs that haven't filled up a page yet. How pathetic. I've already used up alot of resources and I'm trying to garner for more. Hopefully, I'll come up with some sort of inspiration some time soon - I need it.

Aside from my pathetic attempt at writing my paper, I was thinking about Needed. I'll need to update it soon and I have written Chapter 15, now I'm working on 16. The last time I looked at it, I was deleting half of the first paragraph. Perhaps, I'll change the opening of the chapter. Maybe, open it up to a dream sequence or Serenity running from a group of people trying to harrass her into telling them what happened to have made her change so much. Who knows?

It kind of sucks though, that I haven't had that much inspiration these days. I try to think up something for Needed but my mind begins to wander somewhere else. Frustrating, isn't it? At the same time, I can't bring myself to care.

I drew up a timeline for the fanfic. But I either cross stuff out, shake my head, or grumble under my breath when I look at it. Like today, I made one that goes all the way to May but the scenes that I placed in them don't look believable enough for me. Actually, it could work but if I place myself in their shoes the idea seems odd enough.

Date: 2006-12-02 00:44 Subject: Minute step Security: Public Location: Work Mood: confused

I realized it's Friday just a few minutes ago. That was shocking, I briefly noted that today was Friday but it hasn't sunk in.

Now that it is, I just realized just how close it is to Finals Week and the fact that I have homework due tomorrow. I feel a bit relieved, nervous, and unsatisfied by it all.

Not only that, but the fact that I haven't updated Needed I really thought, for a brief second or two, that there will be an update sometime this week. I suppose thinking and actually doing it are two different things, but I'm pretty sure alot of people know that.

Needed is moving along, albeit slowly. I'm somewhere between page 9 and 10. I'm horribly frustrated with the chapter but I can't bring myself to change alot of its content. For one thing, I really can imagine these things happening and for another, I am slightly satisfied with what I have written. I don't know, maybe it's just nerves? I really want the chapter to be a success, but I...have no idea what to do with it. Okay, I'm not being wholly truthful - I do have an idea. I'm unsure of how to write it, where to put it in, and who to involve in that particular scenario. Other than that, I have no idea.

I'm rambling...

Needed so far, is in a section of the story that involves Perrier Artemus Flamel (Artemis from SM) and Serenity. There's an implicaton of one-sided love in there, when I look at it but it's just a fragile moment in Serenity's life - so whatever. Nothing overly romantic will come out of this, I just used it as is. Anyway, that's all I have for now...ta-ta!

Date: 2006-12-01 18:22 Subject: Not really related to fanfiction. Security: Public Location: School's Dining Center Mood: bored

As the subject says, this entry isn't really related to how my progress is for my fanfic: Needed.

I'm really bored right now, and my friend won't do anything to alleviate my boredom. *sobs* Not to worries, I will make him pay for his transgression! Okay, maybe not really...but I'm bugging him quite thoroughly thank-you-very-much.

I tried working on the last homework/project for my ISYS 263 class, it's supposed to be a webpage. Nice, right? But the bad part of it is that we have these damn guidelines for the project, like having to use a template. It's not even a decent-looking template, it's so plain and icky, I'd rather make a webpage from scratch but we're not allowed to. So I'm doing my best to make it, halfway decent. However, I quickly grew bored of it and decided to bug my friend again. He won't even humor me...so I am bugging him by saying 'blinky.' I'm that bored.

For those who are wondering about my progress with Needed, the 15th Chapter hasn't made much progress compared to yesterday. I'm thinking of deleting the last few paragraphs and re-working it to Draco's perspective, or Harry's. I'm not sure yet, but I should think of something either by my first class or by the time I head on over to work.

I know I'm not that good of a student, but I never claimed that I was. At least, not this semester...I've been running on summer-time during the whole of Fall Semester.

Date: 2006-11-30 18:14 Subject: Small Progress Security: Public Location: Work Mood: discontent

I began working on Needed's 15th Chapter. I have 8 pages so far, but don't hold your breath because I'm not satisfied in sending the chapter to be read just yet. I get migraines just thinking about how to fix it.

The first page is about the students finding out that something happened to Serenity, then Harry and resigning himself to wait for Serenity. After that its about Serenity returning to class, but she's pretty much different. She's vulnerable to alot of things, scared even. So when Madame Pomfrey tells her that she must return to class, Serenity is reluctant to go.

The 15th chapter is dedicated solely on showing how Serenity is on her first day, and how it will take a lot of time before she gets over her ordeal.

I'm wondering what to do with the next few pages. My ideas are half-hearted and disarrayed right now, it really sucks and it's aggravating.

I want to involve Draco and Harry in there more. And show the lich again along with Voldemort's musing (but I know for sure that they should be in a later chapter). There's a lot that Serenity needs to get done, but right now she's in a standstill. She knows what she has to do, she's fully aware of her duties but she still can't summon enough courage to go ahead and do it.

I'm done ranting right now about my frustrations. I'll write more later...

Date: 2006-11-29 06:36 Subject: First Entry Security: Public Location: At home Mood: thoughtful Music: None

Well this is the first post for my livejournal account dedicated simply for my fanfic ideas whenever I don't have anything handy. I'll rave and complain about what I'm stuck on and whatnot. :D
To start off with, I'm currently working on my HPSM (Harry Potter and Sailor Moon) fanfic called Needed.

What is Needed, for those of you who are actually wondering about this story? It's about Serenity/Usagi/Serena who had recently defeated Chaos. But it's not entirely over, with every victory comes a price. For her, it's her friends and the life as she knows it. Stuck in the Cauldron where everything ends and begins, comes a new beginning. At least, that's the gist of it...
Serenity, as I call her, is summoned from the Cauldron itself who tells her that she is going to be sent to a new world; a world of Magic... and that happens to be Hogwarts!

It's the summer before sixth year and Dumbledore along with McGonagall discover her because of an odd lightning in a clear night. After using Legilimens (practically skimming through her mind) Dumbledore allows her to "transfer" into Hogwarts to fulfill her duties.

Thus comes the start of Serenity Moon's new life, new friends, and a new branch of magic. At Hogwarts she befriends alot of new people and learns new things. She comes to terms with the death of her old friends and loved ones, while trying to move on with her life.

That's all I can say right now, I'll surely write more about this story since it does help release alot of thought processes that I would normally not type "write" down.
So far there are 14 chapters of Needed out on fanfiction.net and there will be more to come. I'm currently working on Chapter 15, but it's proving to be difficult.